Nausea is also a big thing for me. Driving in the car is hell. Motion sickness ~ never really had that much before. .I'm tired ~ last night was a short night for me. Got to sleep late late 3 ~ 4ish up at 10 ish. . .lucky the dogs let me sleep that late.
My my my. What next. Lots of input right now ~ lots of sensory input. TV on and I can see it through my library window into the family room window and across the room. It's muted (teaching my husband the just enjoy a great black & white movie. . . .) . .He's got the radio on to our favorite NPR Saturday night show. Babie is running around the house squeaking a toy. Scraps is lying on the deck and periodically he will come to the door behind me that leads out to one area of the deck . . .he'll scratch on the door to be let me. He's a sweetie petie. Babie is a sweetie peetie. Male vs. female. Trust me. My terms, my rules.
So I'm feeling sort of nothing right now ~ at least physically. Whoops head rush. Eyes continue to be slight and ever so blood shot. Still look stoned. Neck hurts ~ arthritis. Thumb hurts ~ arthritis badly. Pause, pause behind my eyes. Trying to figure out how to describe some of the sensations I feel. Feelings that come over like a wave. Pretty freaky. Teared up at the Tavern talking to a bud after I showed him a pic of my beautiful boy. My real life 22 year old son, D. Lives across the country and I miss him something terrible. He misses me too. I know that ~ he tells me a lot. We know he should be there. Away from this town ~ this midwestern life. Boooorrring.
I wanted to move across the country when I was in college and I encouraged him to do most of his college life there. He can come back if he really wants to but given his interests ~ beaching it, snow boarding it ~ looking well muscled and healthy and handsome he is in the right world......inherited his love of cinema from me. Live the life. Live your life in the dream you have of life. Why dream it live it.
Babie just went outside. It's 51 degrees on this midwestern spring night. A truly lovely evening. I feel good right now. . .feeling good may start to be something I feel more of rather than just glimpses of. I am strong and I believe I may be a poster child of beating effexor in record time. Had two doses yesterday of Barley. Yuk. Put it in cranberry juice (pure no sugar) ~stir and HOLD YOUR NOSE ~ DRINK IT DOWN AS QUICK AS YOU CAN WITH A STRAW. SHOULD GO get my second dose soon. It's not fun but people swear it helps with the brain buzzes, nausea, etc., etc.
Later. 9:36 pm midwestern time. xoxoxoox Tess signing off.
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