It showed it's face to all I love dearly tonight and I just wanted to smash it and kill it. I am ashamed I am not strong enough to keep my wild emotions in check during this time. I swore I was strong enough. I will keep on keeping on. Just call me 'K.I.T". . . .ya know from bullfinger. . .keep it together . . .keep it together.
I don't want to go back on the meds. I just don't.
I wondered why my arm ~ my right arm in particular aches so very much as night. Babie reminded me why tonight and Scraps reminded me this a.m. I have undisciplined dogs - they walk -or rather pull me on walks. I ache because of it. I'm wasted. Don't feel well and have not felt well for the past few hours. Needed help with the dogs tonight and my husband went to bed early.
We all paid. No we are ok, but I'm more screwed up because of it all. Need sleep. Hopefully I won't have dreams of having bad dreams tonight. Later. . . it's 11:51 p.m. signing off. . Tess
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