Down Time and Up Time

It's been 10 days nearly since I wrote. . . I guess I was feeling well enough that there was not a lot to talk about when it comes to my fibro and definitely nothing more to talk about with my effexor withdrawal. . .I seems to be clean of that drug and it was not nearly as tough to 'kick the habit' as I had imagined.

But most recently ~ I am still feeling pretty well ~ I have finished two books. Completed the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and also finished reading 'Many Lives, Many Masters'. . . by Brian Weiss, MD. Picked up another book by Weiss ~ 'Messages from the Masters ~ Tapping into the Power of Love' and started that and also read the first paragraph of 'The Power of One' by Bruce Courtenay that takes place during the time of the Nazi regime ~ but the location of the story is actually South Africa.


I was so taken by the book 'Many Lives, Many Masters' that it is actually a bit hard for me to move on to another topic or book right now. Weiss's books are about reincarnation ~ a topic I find fascinating and totally plausible. There has to be more to us humans 'cause if this is it ~ this life ~ I sometimes have trouble understanding the point of it all. According to the work Weiss undertook with his patient Catherine we travel through lives with other souls ~ our roles and interactions seem to be different with each life ~ but his work goes on to say that we have lessons to learn in each life, lessons we can only learn while in the physical (not spiritual) form, debts to pay for our or our loved ones past wrongs, and so on. . . .

Having lived my life, personally and professional different than many ~ for one I never felt the need to get a job and keep it for 20-30 years. . I've always thought my variety of jobs have been good for me 'cause there were people I needed to meet, and in meeting these people I had believed I brought some knowledge or wisdom to them ~ a lesson so to speak and then I was done. I was OK when it was time for me to move on. I do know people have come into my life at times when I needed their kindness or knowledge they had to offer me. They've helped guide me through a personal struggle or to help me gain some new insight.


I've always appreciated the adage 'When the student is ready, the teacher arrives'. That is how a life of learning should be, isn't it? If we aren't learning and growing in this life we've been given what is the point? In college I was part of an age-regression study through the Psychology Department. It was amazing and I too was a willing subject before I became part of the research group. . . Dr. Weiss cured this patient Catherine through the hypnosis ~ cured her phobias, anxieties and poor relationships ~ it was like she was reborn. And as with the teaching of the Kaballah and Buddism she showed during her hypnotic trances, and the messages she imparted during that time - that there are 'Masters' ~ spiritual masters who guide us between our lives.


Such knowledge, for me makes the idea of death and dying much easier to accept and not fear. I am with my mother, grandmother and step-father in my dreams (they are all dead) quite often ~ and I look forward to those meetings. I come out of those dreams, particularly the ones with my Grandma Grace and my Mother, Mary surrounded in all I can describe as a cocoon of love. A warm secure happy feeling that stays with me for some time after our being together. With my step-father it is more of a healing time ~ a time of forgiveness . . but with my mothers it is just a safe and loving visit. So I am a believer. I still have much to learn still in this lifetime, and much love and knowledge to share with people I have not yet encountered and with those I already know.

This is how I've occupied my mind lately. And as for my body, jazzercizing it up!!